living Funeral

For my living funeral, I would like having my family and friends with me, spend the time i have left productively. It'd make me feel sad of course since im leaving everything behind, but at the same time i will die more happy because I got to spend the time i had left with loved ones, and having fun, instead of being alone, miserable, dying feeling so sad, and remorseful for not doing something productive.

For the funeral i would like it to be kind of like a party, just having fun, chatting, remembering old times, and letting things out, like feelings/thoughts of me.